Purpose

Awakening Joy

“The purpose of your life is joy!” I’ve heard that time and time again, but I could never really relate. Some part of that felt true and light and like a relief that I don’t have some big thing to do here, I can just be. However it also felt like this eternal struggle to be happy or light and free all the time. Maybe that’s what enlightenment feels like – some sort of peaceful joyful mix of bliss and smiling at strangers and seeing their hearts and falling in love with their souls. But then something happened…

I was in a moment of utter delight and happiness and I asked myself, is this a discordant energy? And it was. I released my attachment to it (my judgement of it and my belief that this was “good” and we needed to stay away from the “bad” emotions) and I was brought back to this very neutral place. There wasn’t quite an emotion there, yet everything felt like it flowed and moved through me. I felt a deep allowance for everything as it was. “This is joy”, I heard. Wow, clearly I had been so utterly wrong about what joy is. True joy felt like a peaceful acceptance of what is in each moment. I think that joy gets confused with being happy a lot, but happy is a state of emotion that can change. No one is truly happy or delighted all the time, and if they were, you would wonder if they are truly feeling the deep breadth of their emotions. Joy is available at all times. It felt like a serenity amidst chaos or the feeling that life is peaceful or complete. I think that true joy is not resisting or reacting to what is going on, just a peaceful and loving attention that something is moving and letting it move through our lives, whatever it may be. Its a trust that no matter is going on around you or in your life, you are essentially okay and life is just rearranging itself for your highest good.

So maybe joy is our life purpose. To judge nothing, receive everything and let life flow through you knowing something greater is creating it for you based on what you truly desire. Maybe its about letting go of all resistance and seeing what happens. What wonderful creations can come our way when we stop resisting what we feel is the bad stuff. What comes after the bad stuff, what’s behind it I wonder. Maybe everything we’ve dreamed of?

Blessings,
Vanessa

What is my Divine Purpose?

Have you ever wondered what your purpose is here on the planet? Do you feel like you are lacking direction and not sure what you are really here to do? Do you feel an emptiness or like something is missing from your life?

The answer is simple. However, simple can easily be overlooked.

When we think of purpose we tend to think of it in terms of what we are here to do. We like to say things like “I am a doctor, lawyer, student, chef, teacher, healer”, etc. Maybe you are in a career you don’t love and you don’t feel fulfilled by it. We then start to search for our purpose, what we are really here to do.

One of the secrets of this reality is that its not about what we do. It’s about what we ARE.

We can search all we want for our purpose. We can change careers and do something we love. I’ve seen a lot of people over the years leave jobs and become healers. It feels amazing to assist others on their journeys and help people heal and transform. It’s truly a joyful thing to be involved in. You get very busy healing people and that emptiness feels gone. The days are busy and thrilling and you have finally found your purpose. Or have you?

Eventually that empty feeling comes creeping back in.

What is it? Maybe its my relationship? Or we think, maybe I’m meant to do something else. The emptiness gets bigger and bigger screaming for us to pay attention. This can be a never-ending search our entire lives for fulfillment.

It’s never about what you do. It’s always about what you are.

Your search for purpose is your internal longing to find yourself. That’s all.

Once you have found yourself you can do anything and its fulfilling. You can sweep the floor or head a live conference. You may feel more passionate about one, but you never feel empty. You feel whole and fulfilled. You never question your purpose again.

How do you find yourself? Finding yourself is not as difficult as it sounds. You are there, inside that body, or in that general vicinity if you are more ungrounded. You’ve just disassociated and ended up in the mind or mental body . This is where you need to take action. You drop out of the mind and get into the body more deeply, you ground and connect with the true core of who you are. From the core of who you are, you will feel like things slow down. You may feel driven to take a certain direction. Your job is to follow that gut feeling. It may be short lived at first as you test out new things and find yourself. The thrill of life will start to come back. You will feel desire in your bones again. Life begins to get fun in a totally different way.

Not knowing your purpose is a sign of dissociation with your authentic self. A calling and longing for you to come home to yourself.

Once you reconnect with your core essence there will never be a lack or questioning of purpose. You have found you. Your purpose has always been to find you and live from that space doing anything you wish.

Blessings,

Vanessa