Joy

Awakening Joy

“The purpose of your life is joy!” I’ve heard that time and time again, but I could never really relate. Some part of that felt true and light and like a relief that I don’t have some big thing to do here, I can just be. However it also felt like this eternal struggle to be happy or light and free all the time. Maybe that’s what enlightenment feels like – some sort of peaceful joyful mix of bliss and smiling at strangers and seeing their hearts and falling in love with their souls. But then something happened…

I was in a moment of utter delight and happiness and I asked myself, is this a discordant energy? And it was. I released my attachment to it (my judgement of it and my belief that this was “good” and we needed to stay away from the “bad” emotions) and I was brought back to this very neutral place. There wasn’t quite an emotion there, yet everything felt like it flowed and moved through me. I felt a deep allowance for everything as it was. “This is joy”, I heard. Wow, clearly I had been so utterly wrong about what joy is. True joy felt like a peaceful acceptance of what is in each moment. I think that joy gets confused with being happy a lot, but happy is a state of emotion that can change. No one is truly happy or delighted all the time, and if they were, you would wonder if they are truly feeling the deep breadth of their emotions. Joy is available at all times. It felt like a serenity amidst chaos or the feeling that life is peaceful or complete. I think that true joy is not resisting or reacting to what is going on, just a peaceful and loving attention that something is moving and letting it move through our lives, whatever it may be. Its a trust that no matter is going on around you or in your life, you are essentially okay and life is just rearranging itself for your highest good.

So maybe joy is our life purpose. To judge nothing, receive everything and let life flow through you knowing something greater is creating it for you based on what you truly desire. Maybe its about letting go of all resistance and seeing what happens. What wonderful creations can come our way when we stop resisting what we feel is the bad stuff. What comes after the bad stuff, what’s behind it I wonder. Maybe everything we’ve dreamed of?

Blessings,
Vanessa