Creativity

Oct 12th & 13th: Getting our mojo back!

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We are FINALLY through a shadow period that began on the equinox last month. It’s been a really quiet few weeks with lots of introspection, physical tiredness, and integration. Today is a day of emergence and we’re getting our mojo back! Are you feeling like yourself again? Tomorrow the 13th will be even more powerful day of alignment with all that you truly are. We are emerging from specific healing energies from the Sept equinox and some from the June solstice time period as well. We have the energy and vibration available to us to now to feel stronger than we’ve felt in a very long time. Think back to a time when money was flowing, or relationships came easy or synchronously, or you just felt healthy and happy in your body. This is available to you again right now. Claim it! ūüĆüSometimes just knowing it’s easy available is exactly what we need to align to it.
Love and Blessings
Vanessa

 

Being Intuitive

Being intuitive requires the deepest surrender. You lean back into the void, into the place between worlds and words. Ecstasy and bliss arises, flooding through your being and you know there is only Oneness in Eternity.

Being intuitive requires the deepest courage. To leave that behind and come back to the here and now and experience what is separation. To put words to what you knew and felt, to make the unconscious -conscious.

Being intuitive requires love. To know more than you can ever be able to explain.

Being intuitive requires trust. To trust your words are misunderstood and resisted. And to be okay still. That’s all part of the plan.

Much Love,

Vanessa

When the Law of Attraction doesn’t work for you

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I’ll admit, there were times I thought the Law Of Attraction wasn’t even real. I just couldn’t seem to get it to work. I, of course, watched other people get it to work, almost effortlessly I’ll add. Then there was me, up all night reading books about the LOA, or other books about the secret to the LOA, or books on receiving, or ones on frequency or vibration. I just couldn’t figure out the trick. What were other people doing that I wasn’t doing? I tried everything. I just knew there had to be somewhere I was blocked with receiving since there were a few things I could make happen, but why wasn’t this consistent if this is a law?

If you are like me where you just about gave up on the LOA, you’ll be happy to read this. I’m going to tell you exactly why it doesn’t work for some people and it works for others. There are several reasons that blew my mind when I found out. I’ll tell you one of them today, but stay tuned because I’m divulging everything…

Well let’s start with a short definition of the Law of Attraction. It says that what you focus on is what shows up in your life. Basically your dominant thoughts will manifest. This is why people have pictures of sports cars and vacations on their vision boards. We focus on it, we remind ourselves to feel what it’ll be like to have it, we think about it, we let go and there it is one day.

With this definition out there now, we can logically say that the Law of Attraction is working whether you think about it, or even know about it. It’s there producing your dominant thoughts as things, people, events and situations into your physical reality. You can see why knowing this exists is in your best interest because then you can focus on what you want to show up. Ok so far so good?

“I’m doing that and its not showing up. The opposite of what I want is showing up, or nothing is showing up at all. Help! I’m stuck!” This is what people ask me during sessions or through my written one question readings. I’m wording that a bit nicer. I know they’re frustrated so sometimes they’re a bit more murderous in their tone. (That doesn’t bother me. Like attracts like ūüėČ Law of Attraction pun totally intended.)

So one of ¬†the super secret reasons you are not getting what you want….You want it so much! If you feel super excited about it, or like you’ve waited so long for it and its FINALLY going to manifest, or it feels too good to be true, or it feels like “OMG my life would just be so fulfilled and perfect if I just had this…” and it feels so great to you and you’re in your head thinking about it, that’s where you are actually pushing that thing away because those are all discordant energies. Its not going to show up.

I’ve seen this with something as small as going to restaurant and everything being above and beyond what you expected. You tell a ton of people then you bring them and they’re like “meh” and the service or something else is off that day.

I’ve also seen with this something as big as “I met my twin flame! We’re going to be together!!”, but then that twin flame pushes¬†them away and it becomes this tense and emotional roller coaster of “How do I get them to like me?”.

Now I’m not saying if you are super excited the law of attraction won’t work. I AM saying though, that if the law of attraction isn’t working then it might be this reason.

So what do we do? We get grounded. We feel the earth beneath our feet. We reconnect with our bodies. We notice we’re having all these intense emotions and the thing we want isn’t showing up. Then we go mind-over-matter. You want to get yourself to a place where you having that thing seems normal, like no big deal. It’s not significant.

Think about the things that you have. You may be grateful for it, but its not over the top. You know its there, its no big deal. The key here is to not make anything or anyone more important or more special or more significant than you. And there it. Secret #1 laid out for you.

Stay tuned for the rest!!

Kisses,

Vanessa

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What is my Divine Purpose?

Have you ever wondered what your purpose is here on the planet? Do you feel like you are lacking direction and not sure what you are really here to do? Do you feel an emptiness or like something is missing from your life?

The answer is simple. However, simple can easily be overlooked.

When we think of purpose we tend to think of it in terms of what we are here to do. We like to say things like “I am a doctor, lawyer, student, chef, teacher, healer”, etc. Maybe you are in a career you don’t love and you don’t feel fulfilled by it. We then start to search for our purpose, what we are really here to do.

One of the secrets of this reality is that its not about what we do. It’s about what we ARE.

We can search all we want for our purpose. We can change careers and do something we love. I’ve seen a lot of people over the years leave jobs and become healers. It feels amazing to assist others on their journeys and help people heal and transform. It’s truly a joyful thing to be involved in. You get very busy healing people and that emptiness feels gone. The days are busy and thrilling and you have finally found your purpose. Or have you?

Eventually that empty feeling comes creeping back in.

What is it? Maybe its my relationship? Or we think, maybe I’m meant to do something else. The emptiness gets bigger and bigger screaming for us to pay attention. This can be a never-ending search our entire lives for fulfillment.

It’s never about what you do. It’s always about what you are.

Your search for purpose is your internal longing to find yourself. That’s all.

Once you have found yourself you can do anything and its fulfilling. You can sweep the floor or head a live conference. You may feel more passionate about one, but you never feel empty. You feel whole and fulfilled. You never question your purpose again.

How do you find yourself? Finding yourself is not as difficult as it sounds. You are there, inside that body, or in that general vicinity if you are more ungrounded. You’ve just disassociated and ended up in the mind or mental body . This is where you need to take action. You drop out of the mind and get into the body more deeply, you ground and connect with the true core of who you are. From the core of who you are, you will feel like things slow down. You may feel driven to take a certain direction. Your job is to follow that gut feeling. It may be short lived at first as you test out new things and find yourself. The thrill of life will start to come back. You will feel desire in your bones again. Life begins to get fun in a totally different way.

Not knowing your purpose is a sign of dissociation with your authentic self. A calling and longing for you to come home to yourself.

Once you reconnect with your core essence there will never be a lack or questioning of purpose. You have found you. Your purpose has always been to find you and live from that space doing anything you wish.

Blessings,

Vanessa

Messages from the Other Dimension

In case you wanted to know what being me for 5 minutes is like.

As I lay there relaxed I could feel my eyes wanting to see further. I knew that if I just let myself go there, and see things inside out, then I would see again. I relaxed and dimmed my eyes a little, testing it out. If I would let myself see things as inverted I would see what I had been avoiding for all this time. It was in that moment that I felt and saw in my mind this fine line of real and unreal. I let myself see what was real, but now I could see the line and all that was beneath it. So I let go and held on to the calm place of certainty that this is a gift. I stared straight ahead and immediately saw 3 spirits of women where my fan was. They were dressed in gray tattered clothes and their cheeks plumped with delight as I looked at them. “Oh, she sees us!”, one exclaimed to the others. Another one looked directly at me and said “We’ve been with you since the 18th century.” Before I could ask them anything more, I was startled by the noise in the house and brought back abruptly to where I began. It became too difficult to communicate with them from this place, so I relaxed a bit. As I scanned the house I suddenly realized I was surrounded by spirits watching me as they encircled the outer edges of the room, yet the rest of the house was empty. “Have they always been here?”, I wondered. I knew I must be doing something of importance to generate this much attention. I turn back to my book about a writer that becomes a Vodou priest in order to create his book, but he must undergo days of darkness and being blindfolded as the spirits communicate with or possibly possess him. “We know its hard for you, you just want a normal life, but it has never been.” One of the women spoke gently. I looked at her puzzled. “We remember you. You don’t remember us.” They moved closer and one stroked my hair and their presence felt very nurturing in that moment. I appreciated their attentiveness and compassion. Just as I started to find comfort in their presence the metaphorical light bulb went off. Oh. “You guys want to go to the light? That’s why you’ve been here all this time?” Time to send them off I guess. “Yes, but when you have a moment.” I thought of how gracious they were even though they had waited since the 18th century and I laughed to myself. I blessed them and sent them off. I turned back to my book finishing the first chapter quickly. I felt something else tugging at me, wanting my attention. I put down the book and someone from the circle speaks. “You finished the entire chapter on darkness and you didn’t get scared.”, one being spoke. ¬†“What do you mean, why would I be scared? I’m fine”, I said abruptly. Suddenly there was a momentary flash of everything I would be afraid of if I was blindfolded in the dark in a cave for days. I laughed out loud from the image and the fact that he so eagerly and quickly shot back to me refuting what I said. I pondered the image for a moment. Strange animals touching me, bugs crawling on me, something eating me perhaps. It was in that moment I wondered if we are born fearing things or if we have learned to fear them. I quickly cleared all the energy that those things brought up until I could see the image and imagine myself being naturally calm. “Thank you.” I said. “You better write this down now.” he said.

Kisses,

-V-

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The #1 Reason Manifestation Techniques Don’t Work

My guides keep reminding me of this precious detail every so often. We tend to get lost in our race to make things happen, to get what we want, to push toward our goals, and to clear the blockages in the way, energetic or otherwise. We focus on the minute details, we clear and clear and clear the energy and give it our all. We stay positive, focused, happy and do everything we learned to do about manifesting our dreams, even letting go of them so the universe can take care of it and make things happen. Okay, not all of us, but if you’re nodding¬†your head to this you know the pain of striving towards what you want every single day, sometimes working at it all day every day and seeing only minor shifts – if that. Sometimes we break down in frustration or seek more help, or find more blocks to clear, but it feels like an endless cycle with certain¬†things. So what’s going on?

Ask and You Shall Receive. That really is all it is. Did you ever ask for something, let it go and then see it show it up? Sometimes you hardly asked for it at all, it was just a passing thought in your mind – and there it was knocking at your door or coming to you asking you if you were interested in what they have to offer. So what is the difference here? Why does certain things show up so easily and other things you feel may never change?

Many books will tell you the problem is¬†about the receiving. You have asked for it, but you are not open to receive it. You’re not a good receiver. You have to let go and just receive. But, I’ll tell you something different, a secret of sorts.

Asking is receiving.

When you ask for something and you are clear as to what you want, but you are not hung up on the need of it thinking it will change your life, or you’ll finally be set free, it is free to come to you. If there is nothing really attached to the asking, but just the desire, it will show up. If there is a lot riding on the outcome of that thing showing up, or you just want it oh so badly, it won’t show up so easily.

Here’s why. You don’t really want it. It’s pretty simple, if you really wanted it, you would have it already. I don’t mean “want” as in lack, like wanting something so badly that it hurts, or makes you sad/miserable/or depressed in any way. I mean desiring it, from a calm relaxed place. A place where you know you can have it. Think of it like this, you have three meals in the refrigerator and someone asks you which one you want. You are coming from a place of having, or a calm place of knowing, versus, the frustrated feeling of lacking and being without that comes up when you think of thing you want so much that you have been working so hard to get all these years.

I have a friend that keeps asking me when she’ll find a job, or what she has to do to get that perfect job. She gets other jobs, minimum wage ones that she doesn’t like to do. She wants a certain type of job. When I tested her “Truth, do you really want a job?” It was a no. You can try this at home. What is that you have been striving for all these years? Truth, do you really desire¬†it? If you do muscle testing you can test to see what you get here. If not, you can feel deep down into your body, not in your head as your head will tell you “yes you do want it of course duh!”. What does your body say? This may not always be the answer, but so many times it goes back to something as simple as this. Do you really want this thing or not? Maybe you are waiting for more perfect conditions to show up. Like losing weight first, then having that relationship. Or maybe feeling like you need to fix something about yourself first before you get out there and get that job. When we looked at this further, my friend felt like she wasn’t good enough for a better job, so deep down she didn’t want the job yet because she felt it was above her.

So what do you do about this? Well, you can look at where you are giving mixed signals to the universe. I advised my friend to focus on both sides of the coin for faster results, what is blocking you from wanting it and is what you want best suited for you right now? One thing was working on her self-esteem and confidence and trust in herself to build up her value, and the other side of this was to sit with the idea of what she thought she wanted. Why did she want this type of job? What did she think it would give her? Did she indeed want this or just the status of the job so she could feel a certain way? Would she be better suited to something else, or was she ready to put her fears aside step into something bigger? She is currently sorting through all of this, but I know when she stops giving mixed signals to the universe and puts out one message clearly – I know she will get what she truly wants.

Kisses,

~V

Are you loving from your heart or your head?

Are you loving from your heart or your head?

This is a strange phenomena I’ve come across lately. Being love vs. doing loving actions based on what we think the idea of love is. The latter is way too common. You could be a head lover if¬†you’ve found yourself saying “I’ve been very loving. I do all the right things. I’m a good person. Why can’t I get what I want? I feel forgotten, overlooked, unappreciated.” We could even add “I do so much for people and what do I get in return?!”. Or, “I’ve put so much good out in the world, what’s going on?!” If you resonate with any of that, there’s a big chance you are a head lover. Some other signs of this are you not attracting people you like and you seem to attract the ones you don’t like quite easily. Or maybe you do like them, but they don’t stick around, or you find out their feelings aren’t mutual after they seemed to be interested at first.

So if you’re a head lover, read on dear friend. We welcome you. You are not alone.

I know I’m dropping a bomb here when I say this, but here goes…

You are not actually loving.

Well now that that’s out of the way, let me say, you are a loving person. You are just not loving – as in the verb/action form of it. You are being the adjective. You’ve moved all that wondrous, amazing yumminess up to your head, which does nothing for you there. It just makes you seem loving. Its how people might describe you, with the adjective loving. The truth here is that you are a tremendously emotional or sensitive-to-feelings type of person, which is why you thought its much safer to pack up and move into the headspace. Perhaps your heart got hurt and you didn’t have to the tools to heal it, so you go through loving actions (notice the descriptor of love here) but can’t seem to attract your real desires¬†in your life in some area because the actual action of loving (verb usage here), which is not a mental state, but an actual embodied state,¬†isn’t¬†happening.

So go to your heart. What’s there? Do you feel anything? Is it heavy? Is it fine?

Now take your awareness from your beautiful and genius mind, which I’m sure is so with this group¬†since we’ve spent so much time there, and put that awareness inside your heart. Breathe in and out slowly a few times. What’s there? Muck and yuck? Puppies and rainbows? I’m not here to judge. When I went to my heart it was full of grief, layers and layers worth.

The heart has a gigantic magnetic field. This is what actually manifests our life. As within so without. So this is why no matter how many times you tell yourself you are going to get that job, that extra money, or a loving mate to show up, it doesn’t happen. You can think positive thoughts day and night, even have moments of feeling that confidence, but in the end it is the state of your heart that creates your outside world. Only when your heart is open and clearer, then those positive thoughts and moments of strong feelings of confidence flow through and can help to manifest what you desire.

Essentially, it would be in your best interest if everything came from love, and if its not possible in that moment, it could be forgiveness. Anything else is considered a withholding of love. The only person we can actually withhold love from is ourselves. Did you ever withhold love from someone because you were upset? Perhaps your mind felt self-satisfied, but did you notice your feelings were unbalanced in some way, maybe even a little empty?

The truth is this. You are LOVE. Love is just another word for your infinite source energy, or your spirit, or your creator, or the universe. So either you are coming from YOU Рyour authentic self Рlove, or you are cutting off from yourself, source, and spirit.

Whoa right!? When you come from love Рyouyou easily magnetize your deepest desires and things that are perfect for you without even asking.

When you have trouble coming from love, forgiveness is a wise choice. It opens up the heart and lets things flow and clears the karma of lifetimes gone by. Its all too easy to go back to the head and think we are open-hearted because we are being nice and even caring. When we come from the heart there is so much less work because we are being it and there is less doing or saving of anyone else.

One way to check this is to stop and feel. Are there endless thoughts in your mind? Do you get bored easily and need outside stimulation more often than not? You’re probably in the head.

Are you aware of your feelings (even if they are ones you consider negative) and is your mind mostly quiet? Do you do and say things that feel in alignment with you. Then you are most likely in the heart.

There’s a reason you’ve been in the head. We know its difficult, and it hurts to revisit what’s trapped there in the heart, but letting go and forgiveness will give you all that you seek.

Love & Blessings,

V

Taking back permission

I had an interesting thought today. Try saying this out loud “I give my body permission to relax”, then take a deep breath and let your body just do its thing. Did you feel even the tiniest of discomfort leaving your body? If you did not, try again but this time let go of the reigns of your body just for a moment to allow it to relax, even if its just for this instance. Did you feel any relaxation? Most of you did right? I’ve been playing with this concept for a while and noticing what happens when I not only give my body permission but give myself permission to do something.

The other night I was in the shower getting for a date and I had the thought, should I be going out this late. I wasn’t planning on leaving the house until 10 since he was working until then. (If you’ve read previous blog posts you are well aware I’ve been passing out waaaay before 10.) So I thought to myself, well why not, its fine, I’ve been out much later than this without any issue. Then it occurred to me, what was I looking for here to feel better about this? Ahhh yes, I was waiting on permission. Now to be clear I was still going to go, but there was this nagging feeling, mostly unconscious – that if I weren’t so intensely paying attention to every thought, every energy shift and almost every breath I would’ve missed it. So this is what felt off. So I said, “my dear Vanessa you have permission to go out and have fun.” Suddenly I was fine and fired up to go out!

So how much of your life are you waiting on permission for. Are you waiting on permission to make more money, more than your partner? To eat ice cream for breakfast? To go out and date more? What if you gave yourself that permission. Permission is not just the ok – go ahead, because most of us have that conquered already. Permission is the ok – go ahead and have a blast! And while you are having a blast please feel no guilt since you aren’t doing anything bad or wrong. Yikes right?! Just writing that made me shudder. How much of not giving myself permission and going into guilt and “I better not or I shouldn’t”¬†have I been doing unconsciously?

“So how about this?”, I thought to myself. I’m asking who did I give permission over me to in all the various areas of my life. I came up with a list of my parents and authority figures and teachers. I didn’t name them specifically but had a list in general. Then I visualized all of them in front of me and I said to them all, “Ok, I’ve got it from here. I’m taking my permission back. You are no longer in charge of that area of my life.” Most of them left or disappeared from my vision when I said it once, but for a couple I kept repeating it and reassuring them I had this and stepping into a greater authority role in my life, then in moments the entire image disappeared. ¬†Then I took out another mental sheet of paper and permanently signed my permission slip to do ANYTHING I desire, ever, for eternity, guilt free. Yep, guilt free.

So what did this change? I don’t know all the details yet, but I am feeling more creative, more free, more open, more myself. And since I’ve let go out of the reigns of my body where I don’t have to give it permission to relax before it’ll relax, well I wonder how it may change and look and feel differently now. See the body is always trying to right itself, so if there is a stuck energy or a negative energy, now it can just naturally let it go without waiting on us to give it that permission or to clear out the energy.¬†That’s a huge start if you ask me!

So much of this was unconscious that it will show up in time and in so many different ways. I’m guessing it’ll make for a way more fun and free and happy though! Want some too? Sign that permission slip!

Kisses,

V

 

Where’d the creativity go? Somewhere weird.

Two days ago I was on the phone with a friend and we were going through our usual rhetoric, laugh, talk, be amazed at the each others psychic hits, spend a moment in shock, and laugh some more. Normal right? WRONG. This time my friend dropped the bomb on me.

“Vanessa, you’re really weird”. Say WHAT? Who’s weird? Apparently my friend thinks I’m weird. Now granted, I’ve been called weird before, actually all the time, but in those times there is usually so much judgment about it attached to what I’m doing, thereby making it a horrible accusation to be weird, that I totally disregard the entire thing – the judgement & the accusation. However, this time was different. This time there was no judgment, and was not in context or attached to something I was doing. I was just being.

A few hours later this came into my mind again. Am I really weird? It was said in such pure awareness with no judgement, that it felt true. It can’t be I said to myself, as I lay pondering this I thought I better text my friend to say “hey and I’m not weird”. However, before I could send the text I got very distracted and I realized I was in the middle of doing something very weird, followed by another weird thing and then another! OMG when is it going to end? I AM weird! There I said it!

And there it was. Out in the open. In that one moment of acknowledgement, all of a sudden a huge burst of energy came rushing up from somewhere very far away, yet deep within at the same time. Within moments I realized I could think more clearly, I felt more alive, I felt more creative, I felt like I was free to do anything I wanted, I felt very light, happy and was giggling like I was a 5-year old getting tickled! What’s even stranger is that I got right up and started to work on the book I started writing years ago but have been putting off because I felt un-creative and blocked and would just stare at the blank screen. The words just flowed on the page, I barely had to think.

Looking back at this, I had been refusing to be weird since there was so much judgement attached, and I was refusing my true creativity, for not just art or writing, but for life. What if everything you do or choose is creative? From the time you choose to wake up in the morning, how you style your hair,  your clothes you put together, to the people you choose to connect to Рwhat if everything you do and choose are all the creative choices of life? How much more creative and fun can it get by acknowledging this and choosing more creatively with what seems like even simple choices?

I know that some people may look at what I write, choose, or do as weird in a¬†judgmental¬†way still. But so what? Its creative and fun and the joy of living has come back to me in the most unexpected way. Where’d you put your creativity? Would you be willing to have it back no matter what? No matter who judged you for it? I think I hear a YES?! ūüôā