Monthly Archives: August 2013

This is the Beauty of Life


What comes to mind? If you are like most of us, something like “yuck” or “no!” perhaps?

Did you know that you actually don’t have to grow old? Every cell in the human body is brand new every 7 years, so why are we looking older and older each year? Well perhaps it’s our pov on things, on how we are supposed to age, on how our parents aged, on genetics, etc. What I have been doing for the last couple years is clearing my povs about aging, growing old, and dying. As soon as one comes up, I clear it so I can stay young forever! How is this working? Well I’m not sure because both my parents look 20 years younger than their age, so I’m not sure if I’m getting anywhere on looking younger, but I can honestly say I feel very young. Actually I feel better than I did 10 years ago. But, I digress because clearing your povs and getting younger is definitely not what this post is about!

As I approach my 35th birthday in a couple weeks it feels like a major milestone for me. A lot of things are coming up that I’ve been making peace with. Death is one of them. For some reason I always thought I would live thousands of years. I heard it was possible. Heck, I even studied a lot of how to do that. Even though I had near death experiences and crossed into the tunnel a few times, I still felt like I would always be alive. These last few weeks of making peace with death – that I may actually die one day – has been extremely freeing. The idea that ok, I’m going to die one day has actually allowed me to live and really be here. To choose the cheeseburger instead of the salad. To take risks. Its changing how I see the world and my life. I feel freer and have this energy of youth that has returned that I haven’t felt since I was 19.

Earlier today it occurred to me that I should make peace with aging. Not growing old. Just aging, the passing of time. As I looked at the passing of time, it actually looked quite beautiful to me. A lifetime of milestones and celebrations! The simple beauty of being just aged enough to head off to college and the excitement overtaking us, to the passing of time and coming upon menopause. It all looked so beautiful. Why is one less exciting than the other? This is the beauty of life. To live a full life is to reach all of these milestones. As I sat and thought about this, I saw a vision of myself in my 50’s and looking back on my life and smiling upon every milestone that ever occurred, no matter how anxious or excited or annoyed I was at the time.

What if some of the “growing old” part has to do with our resistance to these things? Most of us don’t resist growing up into a teenager and young adult. We embrace it and look forward to it and we are enjoying the present. Its when we reach a certain age that we start to resist each day as it passes. As always with energy – there’s the catch 22. The resistance is actually aging us. By aging I mean looking older, feeling older, feeling “too old” and so on. What if we continued to feel how we felt when we were younger, and enjoyed the passing of each day, the passing of time. What if the passing of time was not such a bad thing? As I cleared all my points of views with the passing of time and the resistance to “older” milestones and an entire new set of “firsts”, I realized this was the true clearing I had been seeking all along.

These past few years when I was clearing the energy blockages and points of views with aging, I still had an intense resistance to each passing day and actually still had a real resistance to “growing older”. As you may know you can’t fully clear an energy if you are resisting it. With that resistance in place I was only changing one point of view at a time, and 1) not dealing with reality of things – that time passes and letting it pass instead of trying to stop it and 2) not dealing with the energy of growing older or outgrowing things. (Perhaps this why I still love teddy bears and unicorns and wonder woman? Hmm..will ponder that later.) See when we resist aging, resist time passing, resist growing older, we have no choice but to attract what we resist (a universal law) and more importantly we are stopping our energy and have found another way to keep ourselves stuck and locked into place.

Does this sound like you too? Are you ready to let go of trying to stop time? Will you allow the growing energy or outgrowing energy back into your life? Say yes out loud and the let universe deliver this to you. As always if you need a bit of help with this, call me for a session!

CHEERS to getting unstuck, moving forward again, and growing older while looking and feeling younger!

Instead of coconut water and blogging, I’ve decided it’ll now be champagne and blogging.



Everyones Least Favorite Emotion: FEAR

FEAR. What if fear is not A.) False Evidence Appearing Real and not B.) Excitement? Those are the two most common things I have been told about fear. “Its really excitement, let it go.” What if no, its not really excitement? When I look at the vibration of fear its close to excitement on the frequency scale and has similar qualities, but its really not just excitement. I think anxiety is a bit closer to excitement than fear is when I look at those two frequencies. These two statements about false evidence appearing real as well as excitement only serve to lock up someone more and never get through and totally release the actual fear.

True, what you fear may not be real – in the sense that you are not in real and true danger, however fear is a real and true emotion and has served its purpose at times of legitimate danger. When we convince ourselves it not real however, or that its just excitement, we tend to actually suppress and repress that emotion and it never gets addressed, but it instead it gets buried deeper.

Fear always comes up to warn you of a possible danger and pain. This is actually an emotion you want to have. One, so you can avoid whatever is about to ensue with a proper warning system. And two, you can see where you are being powerless or at the effect of something in your life. For example, if you are fearful of a situation with no perceived threat of danger, stop and ask yourself what you are really fearing. There may be layers and layers of fears, especially if you have pushed it away in the past or tried to avoid feeling that emotion. This is the first step in taking your power back and actually eliminating that threat of pain, as well receive parts of you that have been locked up under fear and being more present in your life and in your body. Upon fear most of us evacuate our bodies. What if something you feared in the past came up and now you can stand firm in your body, look at the situation with new eyes, feel the fear, then take back all your power from the situation?

Here are some steps to help when the fear arises:

1. Acknowledge your fear in any given situation. Let yourself feel that emotion.

2. Ask what is on the other side of it. Then ask yourself how you can get there.

3. Ask exactly what you are fearing and why. Not only will this give you good insight into your psyche, but you now have a list to work from and you’re no longer doing avoidance.

4. Focus on healing these areas. Declare that you are letting go of the fear. Declare you will have your power and energy that is wrapped up in that situation. Declare that you will not be at the effect of these things anymore.  Take back control of this part of your life.

5. Let go of, and clear any energy that comes up. If you have a method for clearing energy and healing through different lifetimes, use it here. If you need some assistance of course call me, or a healer that you work with. Sometimes just a walk in nature can really help you let go of these energies, especially when you are really ready to let these things fall away.

Of course this is not easy, especially at first. It takes time, but this is the path of true change, power and presence. Imagine getting over your fears?! Imagine being the fearless powerful force you were meant to be – in all situations?!



Lemons or a phenomenal life? Nah – Something Better

What do you want your life to be like? List 10 adjectives, GO!

I did this yesterday and I could feel the energy of my life and my future instantly change. I always had a mental picture of what I’d like my life to be like, or a feeling of happiness and peace. Each day I would wait until that showed up. Would this be the day? NO. Over and over again. Then I started to look into all these different things I could do to make my life better. Meditation for inner peace. Heal my life and adjust my relationships for joy and happiness. However, these things only gave me this feeling in spurts. This is what I call the Santa Claus Syndrome (which I explain more in another post soon), which is basically when you are waiting for something you have been dreaming about show up. Its when either you are waiting for it to show up, or you are asking nicely, or even doing what you think you need to be doing for this dream to appear in your life brought to you straight from the magical universe.

One day I got sick of waiting. I started to look for other ways since the “law of attraction” or “the secret” didn’t seem to work for me and I could not figure out what I was doing wrong.

Did you know it was as easy as truly really declaring what you’d like your life to be like? I wish someone told me this years ago. I mean really being in your power and declaring what it is you will have.

At first I asked for a phenomenal life! But then I realized that the word phenomenal really had no meaning to me, it felt too light and airy and undefined. At that point I really thought about what type of life I’d like to have. Have you ever done this? Exactly what type of life would you like to have? Well the first thing I said was, I’d like an EASY life! I could feel my entire energy shift and I started to get happy – that feeling that I had been waiting for forever. I also found myself saying adventurous, amazing, fun, and so on. Try this out and see for yourself. Take the bull by the horns here!

So what’s next? Well the next thing I did was clear the energy blocking me from having this type of life. You too can ask for all the obstacles to you having that type of life to be removed for you, or you can call me and we can do a  quick 15 minute clearing.

And finally what happens is that things start to change. Yep, that easy. After I did this yesterday I felt like I “woke up”. A deeper fog had lifted. Awareness about what I needed to add to my life started to flood in, as well as I what I needed to let go of. Things changed immediately.

Its amazing how we tend to live with what life gives us, be they lemons or not. If they are lemons at best we make lemonade. Are you tired of making lemonade? Making a bad situation into a good one and learning from your lessons, or would you like to start out with something much better than life’s “lemons”?



Total Game Changer

Did you know that there is a source energy within you that you can get disconnected from? How do you know if you are disconnected? Some of signs are:

  • Often feeling spacey, forgetful, or disconnected from your body
  • Your proprioception is off. For example, were you the kid in school that would go to kick the ball but would totally miss? Do people throw things at you but you usually don’t catch them? Do you have to constantly watch your step?
  • Low self-esteem even though you know you are a valued being, or friends or people around you think you have it all the looks, great job, etc.
  • A feeling that something is not right with you, like there is an inner feeling of lack you would like to heal because you know you have great gifts to share with others.
  • You’ve tried a various number of healing modalities but that feeling of unhappiness or sadness still sticks around when you are not in meditation or doing healing work.
  • Feel lost, like you are looking for something more or greater in this world.
  • Feel like your mental, physical or emotional issues are not healing no matter what you do or how much work you put in.
  • You may have felt at some point in your life like you didn’t belong here, that no one gets you, or tried to commit suicide in the past or wish you didn’t have to be here.

These are just some of the things I’ve come across with clients but there could be other symptoms of this. See, we are made up of an energy of Source, an energy that created the universe. It is all within us, our soul/being as well as our bodies. The Earth is made up of this energy, its in the air we breathe and its in everyone we meet. Somewhere along our journey through lifetimes we got disconnected from this energy. I’ve come across people that have been greatly disconnected where it took an entire session to reconnect them, and some who were reconnected in as little as 10 mins.

What does it feel like for someone who has been disconnected from their own source energy to be reconnected? RELIEF. Yes, intense RELIEF and HAPPINESS. Since I’ve discovered that we could be disconnected from our Source, I’ve been working on reconnecting people so far, as this is a new concept and none of the various healing modalities I’ve studied ever presented this, nor have I heard anything like this. So I’m sure there is more to discover, but so far some of the common results are:

  • Joy
  • Exuberance for Life
  • Will and determination to live
  • Almost a disbelief that the individual was ever suicidal or just didn’t want to be here
  • Love of the body
  • Love of the self
  • Becoming totally embodied, and rarely to zero percent “pop-outs” of the body
  • Improved sense of proprioception
  • Feeling grounded, present, focused like never before or beyond what they could imagine
  • Quicker Healings
  • High Vibrations
  • Better Intuitive Abilities
  • Feel more powerful, potent
  • Feel lighter, like a carefree feeling

The list goes on, but these were the common effects between the group of people that were reconnected to their inner source energy. This is definitely not a cure all, but really an amazing foundation and platform to build the rest of your life from. Also, some people have noticed that since they’ve already done a lot of self-work, the things they have done just fell right into place and they are more effective in their lives.

On the most basic level this Source energy is a gift we were given to have an easier life, to be more effective, present, and to feel valuable as a human being. When this gets disconnected, not only is that disheartening, but life can be sad, difficult, or just an endless search for something that has been within you all along.

During your next session ask me to check if you are connected to your source energy and create the solid foundation & platform that you were meant to have all along.

Love, Kisses, & Blessings,